Home, at last?

So, i haven't written anything on here in a while. Haha. Life hasn't changed to much except that my post before this, no longer is valid and i no longer feel that way ^_^ My feelings towards my new school have changed, i feel that it is my school now but it will never match up to what i had before. i love all of my new friends but i they're not like sisters to me, i wouldn't cry if one of them cried and i'd still give anything to go back to what i had before. I LOVE YOU STD. haha. but anyways, moving on from that and the depressingness of it... GUYS. mmmhmm. there is one in particular, in fact there are two. One, is someone i've only met recently, i would've never of thought of him in that way till someone said we'd make a cute couple because of the way we act in school but at the same time he is not my type of guy. He's not blonde, with floppy indi hair, or indi anyway and nor does he have a six pack : but he's sweet and funny and tbh, that's good enough but he doesn't give me butterflies or make my heart thump. The other is annoying, rude and up himself beyond anything, yet he's protective and sweet. he gives me butterflies... occasionally although he's shorter than me and again isn't the kinda guy i'd usually go for but hey, beggers can't be choosers right? There is also another guy, who i'd liked forever but now, it's different. I don't wish i could be with him, i don't wish we were still friends. i don't want anything from him. and that thought makes me happy and relieved cos I'M OVER IT BABY! haaaa. now anyways, onto lighter topics, these next three or two days of mine are going to be spent with the three most awesome girls ever, i love them to bits and i cannot wait. BS baby ;)

yours truly,
j x

New lives?

So, school work is going fine, new found friendships are going fine and well life is pretty dandy. HOWEVER (yeah i used capitals), there is one thing, or person, bugging me. And that is my old friend (she knows who she is & if she reads this i want her to know i'm reali pissed off atm!!!). Basically, we're all excited being here at this new school, everything's fine and dandy. she has her friends, i have mine, easy as right? Wrong. we have been reali good friends for a while, i would in fact call her one of my bestfriends, mayb even my bestfriend at times. we were meant to see this school as a phase, go to fashion school together etc. etc. but it's a bit hard being all 'yay!' about plans like that when she decides to ditch you and put you second best to some person who she just picked up! do you know what i mean? mayb you don't, mayb you do. but to be honest, don't start dropping old friends to pick up ones that you've only known for a like a few weeks, right? get it. got it. good. aaaaaahh i'm peeved.

yours truly,
j x

Shizzzzzle.

So. My mind is blank, really blank for today. I am overwhelmed with shit. work. people. school. friends. it's all too much ya know? So yesterday, i have to write about this b'cos it drove me mental, i was sitting at lunch on a table of six with some 'friends' (aka, people who i'm starting to like but at the end of the day will never give a shit about) and we were having banter. we were talking about guys and i was mentioning how i only went for older ones (but only by a year or two) and these two girls kept arguing against everything i said and giving me funny looks. i then went on to say something along the lines of "i prefer older guys, that's why i'm not really into any of the boys in our year" and then one of the girls replied, "yeah but you've only been here like what? a week!" bitchface. i HATE(!!!) people like that, i didn't leave a girls school to encounter bitchyness. i should've left that behind (although i would give anything to have all of it back) but i am NO WAY taking that here. no way. so anyway, i have to finish writing a GCSE exam style question about Jesus. fun?

Yours truly,
J x