Moving On

Weeeelll, i have realised that moving schools is about so much more than moving schools. It's about completely letting go of old friends, old people, re-inventing myself you know? B'cos, looking on facebook sorta depresses me now. There a few reasons why, because you see your old friends frolicking, boosting their social lives, having a rave... without you. Okay, sure i allowed myself to dip out of the circle, gave up running the popular race. Yeah sure, it's fun & games when you'r up there but to be perfectly honest, it was real friends i wanted. And i got them, in the form of three angels. However, it still bugs me when crazy stuff goes on and networking without me. I try not to regret the decisions i made and are still making but it's hard. So now i am completely off facebook & i refuse to use it again (aha, so not true) but! I am overjoyed at the thought of going to a new school, i can choose the things to tell people about me, innocently give a few white lies and just re-invent myself into the person i'v wanted to be for a while. I'm sick of being the joker. Sick of it. And anyways, life is just beginning. It's hard to let go and face the facts but i have and i will. I just have to promise myself not to worry to much about the goings on of others that have nothing to do with me. Aaah.

Yours truly,
J x